Shannon, it’s too soon to make that decision!!”
“It takes around a year just to get settled. I would give it another year…”
“What are you going to do in NYC? Everything entertainment is here”
“You need to give it time and give LA a true and honest chance.”
I have heard this all. Trust me. If you have no idea what I’m going to be talking about then here’s the headline.
I MOVED BACK HOME AFTER LIVING A YEAR IN LOS ANGELES
6 months in, I started to feel these immense feelings of shame and regret. “I made a huge mistake,” I told myself. “I’ve screwed up my entire life.” Because in my mind, I had moved to LA for good. I had no intention of leaving so I started to feel sick to my stomach thinking that I was now stuck here in Los Angeles. I became disillusioned and I was no longer enjoying it.
Maybe I wasn’t trying hard enough. Were those comments I kept hearing from everyone true? Maybe I was giving up too soon.
Sure I could be doing more, but I was most definitely not a hermit. In fact, in the beginning, I was cold emailing people and going to as many networking events as I could. I met people, and networked, and eventually got onto some sets. I did hustle. My year in review video can attest to that.
But slowly around June, I lost that spark and my hustling slowed. I started freaking out because I started believing that I had made the biggest mistake. I was a failure for even contemplating to move out of LA.
I called my dad in a panic. Do you know what he told me?
By giving it a chance, I found out that LA was not the place for me to live and be in right now.
OK... I’m slowly learning that we don’t make mistakes. They don’t teach you that in school and it’s a really difficult concept to grasp. I’m sure I’ll return to LA one day, but until then, thank you LA for giving me an experience and memories that I would’ve never otherwise made if I didn’t take that leap of faith.
I should be proud of myself. That’s hard to do … but I’m trying. I gave LA a shot. That’s more than a lot of people can say. Since high school, it was always New York City or Los Angeles. For some inexplicable reason, I always wanted to move to LA. So even though I won’t be staying there, at least I can say I did something that I only dreamed of doing.
And now I can move back home knowing what it was like to live there. No more what ifs. Never again will I fantasize about moving to LA.
So for anyone who feels like you made a mistake somewhere along the line and now have to live with the consequences and regrets …
Life is about living
taking risks —
learning what you love
and what you hate —
WHAT IS ONE ‘MISTAKE’ THAT YOU BELIEVED YOU HAVE MADE AND WHAT HAVE YOU LEARNED?